Yesterday was not a good day for me. I woke up way too tired. Toys scattered across the floor greeted me as I stepped into my living room. There was a sink piled high with dishes, laundry to be folded and put away plus more loads to wash, breakfast to make, Christmas cards to assemble, and precious children to care for. This is my usual day, but on this particular day I felt completely overwhelmed.
I was literally on the verge of tears on and off. I was too snappy to my children and I really felt bad about that. Everyone has good days and bad days. For the stay at home mom and homemaker, there are rarely any days off. If I don’t stay caught up on the laundry it will turn into a mountain.
Yesterday I prayed for peace and patience. I prayed for patience as I pulled my daughter off of our end table for the fifth time in a row. I prayed for patience to get through this week while my husband works long hours. I prayed for a way to get everything done that needed to be done without collapsing from exhaustion.
Luckily, I have family members who offered to watch my children for a couple of hours today so I could finish up my Christmas cards and just relax in silence for a bit. I’m not one to ask for help, but I do think it’s important to take help when it is offered. Every mama needs a little break. Every mama needs just a little quiet, although the silence is strange and I find myself longing to hurry up and bring the kids home!
So, while I’m home by myself I’ve been thinking. I often find myself aspiring to be a Proverbs 31 woman, but sometimes I feel completely overwhelmed by that notion. I’m striving to be the best wife and mother and homemaker that I can be, and I guess that is good enough. I have made a lot of changes in myself. Mostly when it comes to being the wife I want to be. I spent a lot of time being bitter and selfish. I have seen how simply changing my attitude has made my marriage stronger and me and my husband happier. I love my “job” as stay at home mom and homemaker and I’m embracing those duties wholeheartedly and loving it.
Still, I have days like I had yesterday. Tough days. I suppose everyone does. It’s ok to breathe, it’s ok to take a little break. Get refreshed and then dive back into your role with a joyful heart.
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