As a little girl I dreamt of taking care of my babies and keeping my home. I would rock my baby dolls to sleep, change their clothes, and feed them bottles. I would play kitchen and whip up delicious meals for my little family. I would chop up weeds for salad and mix up mud pies. All I ever wanted to be when I grew up was a wife and mother.
If only life were so simple. Now I have a homemaker’s dilemma.
I married my husband at a young age. We agreed before we got married that I would finish college and stay at home with our children. It was our plan. As much as I love being a homemaker and a stay at home mom, I have felt very conflicted.
Mr. Simple and I are no strangers to struggle. We have been impacted tremendously by the economy. My husband chose to work for his dad’s small business, and we have suffered because of it. Now he is trying to work, go to college, and serve as a reservist in the military all at the same time to keep our family afloat. I can’t help but wonder, am I not doing enough? Shouldn’t I be contributing financially?
We live fairly simply. Sure, we do some fun things every now and then and we pay for technology that is considered a luxury, but we try to keep things minimal. Since I am the homemaker, I do what I can to save us money where I can. I’ve always been frugal. I meal plan, consign children’s items, buy children’s items on consignment, and try to keep us within budget.
I know how hard it is for families to survive on one income in today’s world. I wish it wasn’t so tough. I wish it wasn’t so difficult. I wish I didn’t have to fight between my heart’s desire to stay at home with my babies and keep my house and the push to go out and make more so we don’t struggle.
I am a firm believer that I have been called to serve at home. Recently, I have had some opportunites thrown my way that would allow me to be a homemaker and keep my family first, while also earning a little and taking a bit of the burden off of my husband. I feel truly thankful and blessed for these opportunities.
The Proverbs 31 woman has inspired me. I’ve been following along with the Proverbs 31 study going on over at Good Morning Girls and I am drawing strength from these verses:
“She dresses herself with strength
and makes her arms strong.
She perceives that her merchandise is profitable.
Her lamp does not go out at night.”
When times get tough, we have to persevere. I need to be stronger than I have been, and I’m going to try my best while also keeping my priorities in check.
Have you ever felt conflicted as a homemaker?
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